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byfugaI really wanted to play ESO as soon as I was done with dinner.
I played it with JR just last night as part of our quality time while away from each other.
But the goddamn game had an update and required us to reinstall the whole game again (whooping 50+gb).
I'm sure I started around 9pm downloading it. And as of now I'm only 15%?
On another topic, J just started watching random videos (bc no ESO tonight). Then I got moody.
For the last year and a bit, 90% of the time I'm the one asking him to do or spend time with me.
He did a bit of 'inviting' me to do things when I used to live 30 min away from him by car.
But yeah, most of the time it's me asking him if he wants to do this or that.
I opened up to him letting him know that not being 'invited' to do something felt to me as if he doesn't have the desire to spend time with me.
He let me know he wasn't really the type of person to invite people to do things.
And you know I love this guy, so I have to understand that's the way he is.
He may not have the initiative but he's put up with my whims to do random things, watch random shit he's never seen before, and he did enjoy those times.
He was apologising and said he'll try and initiate more but you know I told him he doesn't have to. While I appreciate it, it feels like I'm asking him to change.
Now I'm happy to say that because that means I'm accepting this side of him but at the same time I
m not sure if I'm okay with it w/o seeing any improvements because sometimes I do feel like I'm the only one who wants to do things.
I mean when we plan to visit each other, he always books tickets last minute.
I bloody plan mine as soon as he was off mine because it's cheaper to book if the journey date is 3-4 weeks away.
Anyway i don't know where I'm going with this.
I'm sure it's just me being moany because I can't play ESO.
I didn't mind if he couldn't play. I just really wanted to train my horse.
I played it with JR just last night as part of our quality time while away from each other.
But the goddamn game had an update and required us to reinstall the whole game again (whooping 50+gb).
I'm sure I started around 9pm downloading it. And as of now I'm only 15%?
On another topic, J just started watching random videos (bc no ESO tonight). Then I got moody.
For the last year and a bit, 90% of the time I'm the one asking him to do or spend time with me.
He did a bit of 'inviting' me to do things when I used to live 30 min away from him by car.
But yeah, most of the time it's me asking him if he wants to do this or that.
I opened up to him letting him know that not being 'invited' to do something felt to me as if he doesn't have the desire to spend time with me.
He let me know he wasn't really the type of person to invite people to do things.
And you know I love this guy, so I have to understand that's the way he is.
He may not have the initiative but he's put up with my whims to do random things, watch random shit he's never seen before, and he did enjoy those times.
He was apologising and said he'll try and initiate more but you know I told him he doesn't have to. While I appreciate it, it feels like I'm asking him to change.
Now I'm happy to say that because that means I'm accepting this side of him but at the same time I
m not sure if I'm okay with it w/o seeing any improvements because sometimes I do feel like I'm the only one who wants to do things.
I mean when we plan to visit each other, he always books tickets last minute.
I bloody plan mine as soon as he was off mine because it's cheaper to book if the journey date is 3-4 weeks away.
Anyway i don't know where I'm going with this.
I'm sure it's just me being moany because I can't play ESO.
I didn't mind if he couldn't play. I just really wanted to train my horse.
