Fugatory

I really wanted to play ESO as soon as I was done with dinner.

I played it with JR just last night as part of our quality time while away from each other.

But the goddamn game had an update and required us to reinstall the whole game again (whooping 50+gb).

I'm sure I started around 9pm downloading it. And as of now I'm only 15%?

On another topic, J just started watching random videos (bc no ESO tonight). Then I got moody.

For the last year and a bit, 90% of the time I'm the one asking him to do or spend time with me.

He did a bit of 'inviting' me to do things when I used to live 30 min away from him by car.

But yeah, most of the time it's me asking him if he wants to do this or that.

I opened up to him letting him know that not being 'invited' to do something felt to me as if he doesn't have the desire to spend time with me.

He let me know he wasn't really the type of person to invite people to do things.

And you know I love this guy, so I have to understand that's the way he is.

He may not have the initiative but he's put up with my whims to do random things, watch random shit he's never seen before, and he did enjoy those times.

He was apologising and said he'll try and initiate more but you know I told him he doesn't have to. While I appreciate it, it feels like I'm asking him to change.

Now I'm happy to say that because that means I'm accepting this side of him but at the same time I
m not sure if I'm okay with it w/o seeing any improvements because sometimes I do feel like I'm the only one who wants to do things.

I mean when we plan to visit each other, he always books tickets last minute.

I bloody plan mine as soon as he was off mine because it's cheaper to book if the journey date is 3-4 weeks away.

Anyway i don't know where I'm going with this.

I'm sure it's just me being moany because I can't play ESO.

I didn't mind if he couldn't play. I just really wanted to train my horse.

So a few things about my work.:

• I started a temp job unrelated to my degree subject, but it pays good money and much better than being a bum. I wasn't looking for work properly after I graduated in July, and was volunteering as a science tutor to have a sense of structure in my life. But this temp work is better, especially because it's actual work experience and there's monies.
• My contract was supposed to be for two months only, until the end of 2019. But they extended me for January, then re-extended me for February and because of circumstances at work I am expected to stay for March and a few days or weeks in April ( basc someone resigned from a permanent position in the team and the internal replacement isn't being released by their boss until sometime in April).
• While I don't really mind ending the position, it'd be best if I'm kept until the end of April mainly because it will solidify my experience (I would've worked for 6 months and that looks nice)
• My temping ending could also be used as a deadline to see if I do any applications, online courses and other research from February till March (I've started this, but I've been lazy so I need to finalise one Forensics online course then do a different one - I have loads lined up from OpenLearn.)
• But my temping ending also means I won't have money (and I need money if I want to do masters) - so I need to be applying by start of March.

So anyway I kinda got lost to what I wanted to say... but yes, I've been working at the old office for 4 months and we relocated to an office closer to my home. It took me about 15 mins to get back and forth. Neat! Downside is there is no nearby gym and that means I am likely to balloon up again.

Anyway, new office looks okay, very big, has its own canteen, but everyone else not related to our team are goddamn noisy.

And my first day at this new office... about 90% of my time was dedicated to removing duplicate data from a pivot table.

While it was an easy job, it drained me so much bc of how monotonous it is and just plain boring.

But now that's stuff done, more info-searching/detective work will be done, and more forwarding posts and scanning/sending docs.

I didn't have time to flesh out any creativity in my head.

Will I get the chance tomorrow?